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outofsynchi was talking to my mother this morning about education and the expectations she raised us with.
that we must do x,y, and z in a certain order.
she said that she taught us the rules that she valued, but that she has never valued the rules more than the person.
she said that when dalya wanted to go to the national guard instead of directly to college she accepted it because she loves dalya and it doesn't matter that it's not the rules she taught us because it's something dalya wanted to do, and dalya had a different plan.
i asked her how she thought of people who didn't finish high school or never went to college and she said she takes them on a person by person basis.
sometimes people with a learning disabilty don't go to college, or sometimes a person's family doesn't see the value or have the ability to further educate their child.
that doesn't mean the person doesn't have worth or the potential of a future.
she said that in today's world, there is a future for people who don't go to college.
and she said that circumstances can arrise that prevent people from finishing high school.
that doesn't make them worthless people.
she said i need to look at the situations that prevented people from doing certain things and see how they have reacted to those situations. if you drop out of high school because the enviroment isn't good for you, or your life has put you in a place where it will be difficult to finish, but you go back and finish later via the GED's, then that doesn't mean you are a looser, or are worthless, or have no potential. it means that life happens and got in the way and that is another expectation that requires and deserves compassion.
i told my mother that i tend to hold grudges against people for things that they have done forever.
she said that would be fine if people never changed. but people do change. and people can make a mistake and drag their feet on taking the GED's because they don't believe they should have to take it, and then they can change their minds. they can change their course - a person can make a u-turn in their life.
and when they turn their life around, they deserve compassion, and acceptance, and aknowledgement that they are changing.
i have to let go of the grudges when people change who they are or where they are going.
i believe that i have warped many of the things i was taught in my life and i have lost sight of the true lessons and meanings.
i believe that i have not internalized the most important message from my life - value people and who they are.
who a person is counts more than the rules they follow or the paths they take in thier life.
people are more important than rules or expectations.
who a person is, is more valuable than whether they have the same path in life as me.
wh a person is, is more important than my rules.
who a person is, is more important than my expectations.
who i am is more important than my expectations for myself. but my expectations for myself should not be projected or inflicted upon the person i want in my life.
i have not followed that rule.
to value who a person is and to remember that my personal expectations are not more valuable than that person who does good things and who gives good thing and who is a good person.
that we must do x,y, and z in a certain order.
she said that she taught us the rules that she valued, but that she has never valued the rules more than the person.
she said that when dalya wanted to go to the national guard instead of directly to college she accepted it because she loves dalya and it doesn't matter that it's not the rules she taught us because it's something dalya wanted to do, and dalya had a different plan.
i asked her how she thought of people who didn't finish high school or never went to college and she said she takes them on a person by person basis.
sometimes people with a learning disabilty don't go to college, or sometimes a person's family doesn't see the value or have the ability to further educate their child.
that doesn't mean the person doesn't have worth or the potential of a future.
she said that in today's world, there is a future for people who don't go to college.
and she said that circumstances can arrise that prevent people from finishing high school.
that doesn't make them worthless people.
she said i need to look at the situations that prevented people from doing certain things and see how they have reacted to those situations. if you drop out of high school because the enviroment isn't good for you, or your life has put you in a place where it will be difficult to finish, but you go back and finish later via the GED's, then that doesn't mean you are a looser, or are worthless, or have no potential. it means that life happens and got in the way and that is another expectation that requires and deserves compassion.
i told my mother that i tend to hold grudges against people for things that they have done forever.
she said that would be fine if people never changed. but people do change. and people can make a mistake and drag their feet on taking the GED's because they don't believe they should have to take it, and then they can change their minds. they can change their course - a person can make a u-turn in their life.
and when they turn their life around, they deserve compassion, and acceptance, and aknowledgement that they are changing.
i have to let go of the grudges when people change who they are or where they are going.
i believe that i have warped many of the things i was taught in my life and i have lost sight of the true lessons and meanings.
i believe that i have not internalized the most important message from my life - value people and who they are.
who a person is counts more than the rules they follow or the paths they take in thier life.
people are more important than rules or expectations.
who a person is, is more valuable than whether they have the same path in life as me.
wh a person is, is more important than my rules.
who a person is, is more important than my expectations.
who i am is more important than my expectations for myself. but my expectations for myself should not be projected or inflicted upon the person i want in my life.
i have not followed that rule.
to value who a person is and to remember that my personal expectations are not more valuable than that person who does good things and who gives good thing and who is a good person.
