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outofsynchi need to work on my acceptance of things, of zoe, of situations.
i need to work on my reactions to these things as well.
i need to explore my perspective about drug users and how i define that.
i need to remember the spirit walk in "emerald forrest" - they had help for those journeys
i need to question my judgement of all things classified as "drugs" because those things also qualify for the category.
i need to question whether or not that's right.
i need to explore my judgement of my friends who do drugs.
i need to accept that i have friends who do drugs and don't feel it is wrong.
i need to understand where my values come from and whether or not they are good.
family values are a starting point, they don't need to be the final point.
homophobia is a family value, if that can be overcome by others because enough experiences and conversations suggest it isn't right,
then i can question my family's values and whether or not i have enough conversations and experiences to decide that some of them aren't right as well.
my mother has dated people who do drugs, who have done drugs.
she doesn't judge them and she accepts them for who they are.
it's possible the seed was planted because of the way she talked about my father and his marajuana habit.
but she didn't like being with him in the end. and we focus on things that are tangible instead of emotional when things end.
my uncles, my father, my friends, zoe
zoe believes in religous use of drugs - she believes it helps her go deeper into herself and learn more by freeing her mind
she beleives they can be useful and must be respected for that usefulness
she does not accept the use of all drugs as ok.
i need to work on my reactions to these things as well.
i need to explore my perspective about drug users and how i define that.
i need to remember the spirit walk in "emerald forrest" - they had help for those journeys
i need to question my judgement of all things classified as "drugs" because those things also qualify for the category.
i need to question whether or not that's right.
i need to explore my judgement of my friends who do drugs.
i need to accept that i have friends who do drugs and don't feel it is wrong.
i need to understand where my values come from and whether or not they are good.
family values are a starting point, they don't need to be the final point.
homophobia is a family value, if that can be overcome by others because enough experiences and conversations suggest it isn't right,
then i can question my family's values and whether or not i have enough conversations and experiences to decide that some of them aren't right as well.
my mother has dated people who do drugs, who have done drugs.
she doesn't judge them and she accepts them for who they are.
it's possible the seed was planted because of the way she talked about my father and his marajuana habit.
but she didn't like being with him in the end. and we focus on things that are tangible instead of emotional when things end.
my uncles, my father, my friends, zoe
zoe believes in religous use of drugs - she believes it helps her go deeper into herself and learn more by freeing her mind
she beleives they can be useful and must be respected for that usefulness
she does not accept the use of all drugs as ok.
