because you said you need me

nothing has changed.
time has not yet worked her magic on us.
the "i" and "you" is too new
from the "us" we once were
to be different.
we have not evolved enough to come full circle back to "us".

on both our parts, i think,
the new needs time to settle
to become comfortable
to become old
we need time to look at the "you" and the "i"
to see what changes are valuable
to see what of our needs the other must meet

we must be critical of this pull back to "us"
we must be wary of it,
disect it,
evaluate it.
we should not rush
headlong back into a joining.
fear or repeating our prior mistakes
should keep us at bay.
if the "you" or "i" does not meet muster,
we must resist,
we must be strong,
we must withstand the lust.

if either of us does not wholey fulfill
the other's needs,
we will suffer and regret the joining
and we will surely loose
the "you" and "i" that each of us is creating
from the ashes of the "us" we once were.

(no subject)

halfheartedly,
in vein
i write.

i miss you
and it slows my tongue;
dulls my wit.

i want to seem strong
resolute
determined
but my station is eroding
below, the waves of longing lap
eat away at the rocks
eat away at my foundation.

the tears of my heart
seep
feed the waves
feed the waters

and forgiveness weakens me
and compassion undermines me
and understanding shakes me
and inside i shiver

the comfort from my walls cracks
and i fear the onslaught once they fall.