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i gave notice at starbucks this week........
it's a little sureal really.
after thanksgiving i'll only work sundays, except for christmas eve, and then i'll be gone by the end of the year.

i'm going to have weekends for the first time in 4.5 years. what am i going to do with myself?
(besides homework)
though homework is important.
i've been putting off this paper i have to write before the holidays and i need to get it done.
at least i think i finally found a topic to write about, you know?

wish me luck on everything, ok?
things are going to get a little rocky now.
change and growth, and probably some depression to join in.
i've got to find my balance, and i've got to find myself.
 

breathing

today i cannot breathe.
but if i could run away, put on someone else's shoes and leave my dirty clothes behind,

i could blend into the crowd and loose my pain as it wandered the streets of time square looking for me, and unable to find me.
i would become another person
and live and laugh and dance
i would be popular
my euphoria would provide an aphrodisiac to the masses who would never get enough of me.
i would slip into this new life
abandoning my cats and my empty apartment to fend for themselves
and maybe i would go back for my cats;
sneak in through the night and snuggle them away while my depression slept. and we would ride trains across the country and see new sights and smell new smells and we would lead new lives
and in the mountains of Colorado, and the rapids of California

I would be able to breathe again.